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Heh, it’s a joke. Don’t feel like crying at all actually.
Just felt that I need the motivation to work again.
I feel no loyalty, no passion, no satisfaction, no gratitude from my work.
Had missed like 2 trainings, and I actually miss them.
I feel less depress when I’m there. But now I got to bring myself up to continue my work and get it done. *sighs*
Somehow, it’s just not getting in to me. It’s been 2 years since I’ve worked here, I felt that it’s better not for me to ask them, at the same time, I need to. I feel… Stupid. HA… I need to improve myself more…
Remember I had this post on Nick Vujicic?
Went for training yesterday night. The trainer shown us quite a long clip about him.
Plus two 16 years old girls (Abigail and Brittany Hensel) who shares 1 body.
It shows how human CAN achieve, even if they are not normal.
Plus because they are NOT normal (physically wise), doesn’t mean they are not mentally.
Trainer said last night, quoted from Nick, that he is glad that no one before him had the same symptom.
I believe, because of this unknown possibility, he was able to stretch his ability as far as possible.
Like, if for the first case of an unknown person or event happened, and the result is negative, all the rest that follows, will be 95% negative. Cause they will have the mentality of “Since the previous one doesn’t succeed, why would I?”
Last night, the whole training was about Belief, about how we Believe, can bring us further in life.
The 4 important A’s in our lives that we should keep in mind. So to Change:
1: Awareness - Aware that we DO have a choice in life for everything
2: Awaken - Awaken your subconscious to realize the choices you’ve made, which gave you this life
3: Action - To DO what you decided and move forward
4: Accountability - To be responsible for everything that had happened to you in your life. Don’t push the blame to anything else.
I start to understand, why I have lesser things to worry about. Not because my life is perfect, but because I start to take things into my own hands. I use to push the blame to others. Even as simple as missing a bus, it was never my fault.
But after going for trainings, I start to understand, what we choose to think in the first place, already make the difference in the forthcoming events.
Recently I told Mag that I want to start doing makeup again. But not so fast. But slowly. (The makeups isn’t cheap)
In the past, I choose to believe that makeup is bad for skin and looking plain is good. But as time goes by, I start to hate myself and start blaming people for being “face-important”. But this happened because I CHOOSE to not have makeups.
I start to (awareness)notice the possibility of my life, and thus awaken my true self, of what I’ve made in the past and what I SHOULD do to make my future better.
Now, my action, I’ve given my verbal promise (and not by words) of getting makeups.
Accountability, I Account for what happen to me for my life from now on and it seems, that life IS better than what it deem to be. 
Later, Trainer showed another 2 videos. 1) Anthony(Tony) Robins and 2) Robert Kiyosaki (author for the famous book “Rich Dad, Poor Dad”) on successMedia video. Even though it just was a glimpse of their trainings, but it was enough to let me understand, why people are willing to spend over a few thousand dollars to be there. Because it’s a LIFE CHANGING experience.
Success can be define in a lot of ways. But to be successful in life in all the factors (Families, Friends, Career, Mentally, Spiritally and Physically) we need Time. Trainer said, that when people work throughout their life, 1/3 is wasted just to exchange for money, just to survive. A lot of doctors had mentioned, we spent 1/3 of our lives sleeping. All the factors I mentioned above, we will be able to only contribute 1/3 of our lives to them. Why are there so many people who are not successful, because they choose not to be.
But I know there is another choice in life, which is to invest my time. To invest time, I get more time. Some people might not understand that, but when more is being discussed, You might understand.
I’m glad I’ve chose this path in my life. It’s going to be a tiring and tough jorurney, but I know, it’s worth it.
You are NOT responsible for what people think about you.
But you ARE responsible for what you GIVE them to think about you.
- Stanley Ferrard
(Humor)
When they discover the center of the universe,
a lot of people will be disappointed to discover they are not it.
- Bernard Bailey
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